before.ever.after.
Is it too much to ask
For a shock to make
My heart beat again
Where has that feeling gone
It’s none to forlorn
Numb and void,
Standing, looming
I hope to catch that gaze
To break the daze
I am caught in
Is it difficult
To live in an illusion
Of many a beautiful nothing
Perhaps I’m a dreamer
Am I too silly
To even want something as pure
Doubt not the question
But break the answers to me
And reveal the dead truth
I think I might have just given up
Being a fool to want something
That may never be found
Ever.
Once
Missing those days
thinking back on the ways
things once were
Appreciating the present
though longing for the past
now beginning to taste
very much like dust
upon the book
of my memories
which 'once were'
I start to wish
just barely hopeful
that I could live
like before,
way past the door
of my nostalgia
containing the sweet prescence
of innocence
and delicate lockets
of short lived happy
spurts of laughter
Let me now be the
master of my ways
controlling days
of sadness,
making way for
sweet giggles
of delight
Pure love
Behind my toothful grin
tucked under my sins
wrapped beneath
the skin of my pride
lies a beating heart
It throbs with passion
with veins threatening
to burst with thick
knowledge of
the existence of that
mysterious something
Whatever the results
it brings;
that something which
I call love,
sometimes brings
more pain than jubilee
Perhaps I played it
the wrong way
call me silly
deem me foolish
but the being in me
tries hard to believe in
a love as pure
as angel’s breath
that lays yet
only on the tip of
my nose.
Swirls of brown
My tongue
Makes contact
With the dark brown
Swirling with ecstasy
Eyes closed
Fluttering with delight
My smile hints of something creamy
And breathes
Of dreamy desires
Might be I’m just crazy
I could be only playfully
Addicted to a pleasure
So dark and dangerous
Feeding my constant high
Bringing me further from my pain
I laugh with disdain
And cry with realization
When I know
that I have within my grasp
My one true love,
That is,
The divine
Chocolate.
That speck of dust
A speckle of dust,
falls on my arm
and appears be alive
I blew at it
and away it flew
faster than dew
which drips
from trees in the morn
Soon, I find
that indeed
and weirdly so
I am truly part
of the spectacles
that dot
of dust possessed
I dwindled upon
that thought,
one which had me
entranced and bewildered
If I may,
I would learn
someday to free
my soul
from the dark musky
slew of melancholic
existence
and just be
like that speck
of dust to which
we never bother to give a damn.
Never been better...
Being left alone,
An isolated stone
Left unturned
Its all been done.
You disappeared
And left me with a tear
Giving no real reason.
I should not have bothered
You just had
to treat me like dirt
Leading me on,
You’ve had your fun.
What you say
Don’t matter no more
Cos I’ve gotten over you
Fact is
I’ve never been better
I’m feeling kinda greater
Without having to deal
With your sweet tender
lies and broken promises
Thanks for being a
Non-existent silent pillar
You made me realize
How much I deserve better.
I’ve never felt better
Having not to deal with you
No more.
I'm ME
If I had a different life
If I had walked a different path
Where would I be?
How will the end turn out?
I cannot stop wondering
About the many possibilities that
Could have been
What if I was another person
What if I never lived here
Where would I be
How will the end turn out?
My wandering mind has
Thousands of questions that
Even I can’t answer
So I just feed it with the simple reason
That ‘It doesn’t matter’
Because I’m ME.
Stay
Oh how I hate to leave
To go back to my reality
I wish I could stay
To enjoy a brief eternity
If I could, I might
I just may stay a little longer
But what permits me to such bliss?
I hate to admit
That I do not wish
To ever leave
I wish forever could last
Infinitely
While I pause
To taste
Life’s mellow bittersweet delights
Sunny beams pierce my skin
And I think for the moment
That life is good
I will not lay low and hide behind shadows
I will emerge from the murky waters
Of life’s ugly curses
I rejoice and smile
For I have so much to give
Dreamseeker
Relish the moment
Absorbing the temptuous
Need to want
To dream
To hold
To hope
Design your own fate
Make a date
With destiny
You shall choose
A life of your own
Without any noose
Go on
Chase the rainbow
Which holds that
Pot of gold
Don’t wait till you’re old
Dream what you will
Till you reach the end.
You will be that
Dreamseeker
You will dream
You will seek what
Your heart desires
Dream a reality of yours to make.